Have you ever had to eat crow?
No really have you ever had to go back and apologize for
something you said to your spouse that caused offense?....and once there
realized that there was more apologizing that was going to ensue? I think this is an area where almost every
woman if she is really honest with herself struggles. I have caught myself apologizing to Jason for
one thing and at the same time feeling justified for being angry about
something else..... This is the place where we are called to cleanse ourselves
of all unrighteousness.
If we confess our sins, he is
faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all
unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 (NIV)
So how does one accomplish that? God has worked on me to confess it to him so
that I can be set free from it.
I mean really, does anyone truly enjoy being angry? I think not!
I think it is the worst feeling in the world to be in the
midst of an apology while working on the next angle of where I am going to be
right and Jason, wrong. We are called to leave the fight there in asking for forgiveness and submitting to it! If we focus on who will win the next round we are stuck right where we are! Forgiveness is about unity! It took me a few
years to realize If our marriage isn’t thriving no one is winning! It was a Eureka Moment when I realized that
Jason and I really were supposed to be on the same team. Knowing that is half the battle. Standing firm when satan tries to tear you
down here often times is the other half.
Don’t worry
about whether your spouse thinks you are sincere. Pray for them to be able to receive your
apology after you have offered it.
Sometimes in the heat of an argument Jason has held me accountable for
something I have said in the past that was hurtful. I have had to take stock of what he is saying in that moment and
offer a sincere apology for something I may not have realized was hurtful or
misunderstood. It is in the moments
after our conversation is over that I have the best opportunity to lift that
apology before God and ask him to help Jason know in his heart that I really
meant it and that I truly love him and want to show him respect!
There isn’t a greater feeling than when you can apologize
for an offense known or unknown and move forward knowing that you are right
with God, your husband and your mind and heart are clear!
Blessings~ R
